Holding Myself Accountable
Every so often I mention my struggle with being overweight on this blog. Sometimes I’m complaining about my lack of self discipline, sometimes I’m talking about how hard it is to find clothing that fits (as in, I don’t, I get it in the States), and this past autumn I mentioned that I had successfully lost almost 30 pounds, which was about half of what I needed to lost to have a BMI in the normal range.
Well, despite the fact that I promised myself that that would be it, my permanent lifestyle change, it pretty much broke down in November. I don’t really feel the need to go into why because there are several reasons. But what it boils down to was that it was easier to stop paying attention to how I ate. And the more weight I saw piling back on the more upset I got and the more I ate. And now? Now I’m right back where I started.
Now, in case you haven’t heard, CB and I are getting married in May of next year. Which means I have 15 months until I have to look fabulous in a wedding gown. I weighed myself yesterday, got the food measuring scale out this morning and started tracking what I ate today using www.sparkpeople.com. And now, what I’m about to do is something I don’t think I’ve ever done directly on my blog.
I currently weigh 230 pounds (that’s 104.2 kilos).
My goal is to weigh 165 pounds for my wedding (74.8 kilos).
I’m leaving myself plenty of room for the occasional “aww dammit I just couldn’t pass up the chocolate cake” moments as well as plateaus and anything else that can crop up on the path to losing weight. I’m telling you this because this blog is something important to me and I get a lot of encouragement simply from the fact that you show up here to read what I have to write.
I’m hoping that by keeping you up to date on my progress that I’ll also be able to hold myself accountable easier; that my first “aww dammit I just couldn’t pass up the chocolate cake” moment is only one moment rather than a progressive sequence that eventually leads to chocolate cake for all of my meals. So once a week, probably Sundays or Mondays, I’ll let you know how it’s going. If I feel extra inspired I may even start up a little food journal page to help keep track, although the spark page works as long as I use it.
Thanks to all of you for reading and caring.
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I’ll be thinking of you – I imagine that bike riding season will be helpful.
Hurray for you, but you know that we love you no matter what and so does CB. But you have to do what you need to do. I used Spark a couple of years ago and it really helped..however, I too have fallen off the wagon so maybe I’ll take this ride with you!
I’ll look forward to watching y(our) progress!
I hope you inspire me, dad, Scoot and (gasp) Stef too.
I don’t think you realize that we’ve seen you and you do look fabulous. You have posted a pic, on this here blog. (I saw it when I lurked.)
But, you are soliciting encouragement. So encouragement it shall be.
You can do this. I was heavy ALL my life until two years ago. I have slowly lost the weight, and kept it off, mainly because I employ an insanely strict focus on the goal. Are there oopsies? Yes. But they last about a minute and I am straight back on the wagon. If *I* can do it, anyone can, especially someone fabulous like yourself.
you go girl! I know you can do it. you will be a beautiful bride no matter what
You did it before, you can do it again, even better this time.
But I warn you, even skinny girls look fat in white. Why can’t wedding gowns be a nice sleek black?
Also, pre-wedding stress and excitement may count for a five to seven pound loss in one week. And that is always helpful.
You can do this! I am currently struggling with weight as well. It yo yos and I have no idea why. I mean I understand that I am probably making the best eating choices and I probably eat too late because of hubby’s schedule, but doing everything the same I still lose then gain, lose then gain.
I plan on doing this on my blog as well. We can keep each other accountable.
Hugs!
Hey Korie,
You can do it. I have so much faith in you. I too, since having the kids, have weight issues. I’ve tried and tried to lose the weight, but to no avail. It’s all about discipline. I’m slowly learning. I will be praying for you to get through this and to reach you goal. You have all my support, and I hope you do it. I love you, no matter what. Always have!
Go for it!
You CAN!!!
Hehe…well, I think you can do it…if you are brave enough to write your weight here on your blog…you múst have the right attitude to get where you want to be!
30 kilo’s is a lot…it will not be easy, but if you are so very prepared to try, you will succeed! You go girl!! 
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Byebye!
btw. the dutch word for ’streetperforming clown’ is ’straatartiest’! Nice pictures of Antwerp…I went there for the Chinese NewYear-celebration (31st of january) and recognize the white lionstatue!
Wishing you all the best! I used a similar site online to track calories and exercise and had some nice success with it because just tracking that stuff made me more conscious of what I was eating and of burning whatever excess calories I was consuming. Except on Fridays. That was my free day. I also went with a 50% carbs, 30% fat & 20% protein approach because of the kind of exercise I was (and was not) getting. I don’t know that it was perfect, but it worked for me.
Everyone has his/her own way of approaching a plan for eating better overall, and that was mine. I hope you find yours, and I’ll be cheering you on!
After the next move, I really need to get back to it, too.
Noticing we haven’t heard from you in a day or so…just wanted to make sure all was okay!
Good luck to you! You can do it. And what a great motivation a wedding is!
Good luck to you!
You can do it, I’m sure!
Overweight?
That’s a severe problem when you think about it every minute, day and night.
Just ignore those thougts. Forget food. Concentrate on you next activity and carry it out.
I love fruits.
Says
Tor from Norway
You can do it! YOU CAN! I think having a goal – like a wedding! – helps a lot. I’m doing my best to lose weight, too. We can encourage each other!